I have a brother who is autistic. He’s a special adult, and he lives in a special facility for people like him, and he gets medication for his disability. I’m struggling with the guilt that I feel every day because I feel like he should be with me. He’s 25 now, and I’m 32. I’m financially not able to take care of him because I have a daughter of my own.
Unless you are better equipped with more time and more energy and more skill at caring for him than this group who is caring for him now, you would feel even more guilty if you tried to take care of him because you wouldn’t be able to do an adequate job at it. I would encourage you to let go of the guilt. Realize that he’s in the hands of the people that can care for him the best right now. Until you can get into a better position where you’re more capable financially and time-wise, then don’t beat yourself up about it because you love him. You can pray for him and go visit him.
Don’t feel like you’ve got to carry the burden of guilt because Jesus has paid the price for your guilt and you’ve done what you could do for him. Now you need to put it over into the hands of the people who are skilled to minister to him. Guilt is from the devil. If there’s something that you know that you could do for him, then do it. But don’t live in guilt.
Life’s too short, and if he really could give you the honest answer, he would tell you, “Please don’t feel guilty for me my dear sister. Live your life.” Live your life for him. Let him live life through you by living your life to the fullest; serving God with all your heart, mind, soul and strength.